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The Starving Dog

When life puts a starving dog in your path

You have a choice

To kick its teeth in, out of revultion

Or to feed it

 

Deep inside each of us are a Black dog and a White dog

The White dog is love and comes from our memory of innocence

The Black dog is fierce and comes from abandonment, abuse and neglect

 

To heal spiritualy you must pick up the Black dog

And even though he snarls, foams at the mouth and bites at you

You must love him

For he is your Black Dog

 

I was a starving dog once

 

==Marty Wilde 2017

The Authentic Offering

Communion with the Great Primal Other is made possible through an authentic sacrifice or offering. It is not necessary that the offering be perfect, but it is essential that the offering is authentic.

The authentic offering makes it possible to move from literal space to ritual space. It is in ritual space that the Great Primal Other can provide the energy that powers the spiritual transformation.

Holding the tension of the opposites

To quote Carl Jung, “All opposites are of God, therefore man must bend to this burden; and in so doing he finds that God in his “oppositeness” has taken possession of him, incarnated himself in him. He becomes a vessel filled with divine conflict.”

Jung says it is crucial at this point to “hold the tension of the opposites.”

When the opposites first get constellated, there can be wide oscillations between the two polarities; this can at times look like manic-depression. If the person doesn’t have a strong enough sense of self, which is to not have a strong enough alchemical container, they will split-off, repress and project out one of the pairs of opposites and identify with the other. Instead of a reconciling symbol arising, symptoms result.

If a person is able to hold both opposites simultaneously, it can be an excruciating experience. Jung points out that, symbolically, this is a veritable crucifixion. This is to be genuinely imitating Christ.

“It is no longer an effort, an intentional striving after imitation, but rather an involuntary experience of the reality represented by the sacred legend.”==Jung

“Again, the devil took Him up on an exceedingly high mountain, and showed Him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory. And he said to Him, “All these things I will give You if You will fall down and worship me.” Then Jesus said to him, “Away with you, Satan! For it is written, ‘You shall worship the LORD your God, and Him only you shall serve.’ “
== Matthew 4:8

Who Are You?

Well they’re lining up
To mad dog your tilta-whirl
3 shots for a dollar
Win a real live doll

All the lies that you tell
I believed them so well
Take them back
Take them back to your red house
For that fearful leap
Into the dark

I did my time
In the chill of your arms
Now Ophelia wants to know
Where she should turn

Tell me…what did you do,
What did you do the last time?
Why don’t you do that?

Go on ahead and take this the wrong way
Time’s not your friend

Do you cry?
Do you pray?
Do you wish them away?

Are you still leaving nothing
But bones in the wake?
Did you bury the carnivore?
Lions and all
Excuse me while I sharpen my nails

And just who are you this time?
You look rather tired
(Who drinks from your shoe?)
Are you pretending to love?
Well, I hear that it pays well

How do your pistol
And your Bible
And your sleeping pills go?
Are you still jumping out of windows,
In expensive clothes?

Well I fell in love
With your sailor’s mouth
And your wounded eyes

You better get down on the floor
Don’t you know this is war
Tell me who are you this time?

Tell me who are you this time?

==Tom Waits

God is Wild

Carrier wave from nether
Shatters the boundaries
In Split-rock time
And holds the tension
Of conflict

Suspended
Between pairs of opposites
I carry and await
The rising of the third

God appears in the black space
In the tension
The unknown
The uncertain

I’m in the vacuum
Untamed and wild
A universe
With no leash

God is wild
Wild is real
God is real
God is wild

© 2015 Martin H Wilde

Anger

Sure beats fear
That anger does…..
Its your backbone boy
Time you made friends with it

Its the part of you
That stands up
In the face
Of adversity

Its the personal power
That takes action
That separates you
From situations that would kill you

Once separated
From the trap
Clarity can again dawn
And my soul is again mine

Beware the bitterness
That holds onto anger
To define you by it
And imprison you in the dark

“Go ahead take this the wrong way…..”

© 2015 Martin H Wilde

The most profound accomplishment

I twist like a weasel
Slipping through razor mesh
Picturing kings and loves
And power

As control is arrested
It squeals like an entitled prince
And spits upon the wall of power
Screaming untamed lust

I crawl inside pussies
Like a lord returning
Disregarding the other actors
Intoxicated, I am amazing

I argue with the learned
As if I was born knowing
And advise others
Of things I do not know

I cheat my way onward
Take credit for flukes
I fine tune my format
Disregarding content

Pulling Rabbits from hats
I pretend their words are mine
I get lost in the fat-ass of vanity
Seeking an original thought

Presenting falsely to the world
Hating them for not seeing me
I hide behind my false self
They cannot find me

I kneel daily
Prostrate on the floor
I beg from my source
“Please help me”

© 2015 Martin H Wilde