Concern that one would betray the truth is the essence of self-doubt.
Under all my fear is the soul-destroying concern that in a pinch I might choose dishonorably. I may back down from a role that is mine to carry, I might succumb to a relationship that does not honor what I am or treat me with value.
The betrayal of ones own code is far worse than being betrayed by a beloved.
Truth is the will and purpose of god in man (Khalil Gibran)
Spiritual seeking or seeking God is a quest into the unknown; that which is beyond your current understanding. It is about expanding.
It is important that God is unknown. The more we try to pretend we “know” God, the less honest the quest becomes.
We are not supposed to feel safe and secure – life is insecure. Instead we put insecurity aside and honestly seek.
This is the day of the expanding man
I take one last drag as I approach the stand
As opposed to achieving some fixed form of high wisdom, I think enlightenment is more the idea that insight comes on an as-needed, when-needed basis. And that it is not to be treated as currency, nor can one be materialistic with it.
This is my complaint with traditional religion. The idea that if you are a good boy, and save up all your good deeds [ideas] you get some sort of cumulative reward for being a good spiritual materialist.
Instead I’m leaning more toward the idea of seasons, timing, alignment of factors, instinct, intuition. I think intuition is the sum total of many instantaneous surges of enlightenment. They become imprinted on your being and are later there but not as intellect but more-so as intuition. They inform your choices which could be seen as enlightenment in action.
It is intimacy that I have been seeking and intimacy that has been lost. I feel unified when somebody “gets me” and devastated when that intimacy is taken away or replaced by false intimacy.
To create intimacy one must become vulnerable and share the truth about who one is. It is this risk that sets the tone for others to reciprocate by also getting real. The bond of one person being real and another reciprocating by being real is intimacy.
Intimacy is destroyed by fear, selfishness, judgement, power games, pride and the pursuit of comfort and intoxication. I have been left alone by others who bail on the intimacy, so maybe all intimacy must end and the only constant is the intimacy of ones self with ones truth and ones world – with no claims on others.
To consistently stand up to another persons untrue behavior with truth is noble and potentially helpful to a person who seeks change. But for those who allow fear to take them back from their path, you are doing that persons’ work for them and they do not develop. You become the focus of their dysfunctional behavior and are often punished for your kindnesses.
Today I release others to the dark and light powers so they may be molded as the universe sees fit. I will feel my way through the pain of letting go, until I reach the other side.
Sobriety means facing life honestly and directly.
Honesty means seeking the truth of who you are and then being it.
It is my job to be the man I am, in this universe, on this day.
To attempt to write or say the truth, when it only occurs as an instantaneous surge of inspiration is absurd, but then again so is being alive.
Truth is revealed at the right moment and cant really be captured and stored for later use. It is a “just in time” sort of thing.
Shame is an unspoken epidemic, the secret behind many forms of broken behavior. Brené Brown, whose earlier talk on vulnerability became a viral hit, explores what can happen when people confront their shame head-on. Her own humor, humanity and vulnerability shine through every word.
Spiritual seeking or seeking God is a quest into the unknown – that which is beyond your current understanding. It is about expanding.