An addict values substances and acting-out an addictive behavior, more than he/she values you or your love.
This is a devastating and horrific truth to come to accept.
During the period of coming to accept this truth, there will be a tremendous amount of denial and wishing for a different outcome, followed always by the devastation of low self-worth. Recovery from this state will occur when you finally value your own self more that the addict values you.
You will continue to seek the Devil’s approval until you leave the Darkness. This requires taking pain.
“Easy woman, you are speaking to the man I love” (Thomas Jackson)